yesterday was so much fun. rico and i woke up and got ready. before we went we stopped at a&p to pick up some things for the bbq. we brought down a 12er of corona lights and a bunch of food. we got there around 2ish. my niece is such a piece of work. shes such a bitch i love it! we ate and then rico went right to work with fred lol. rico helped fred build the waterfall infront of the house which was basically an all day event. it came out really nice tho. i have a feeling it was mostly rico's doing lol. they had fun together tho and im glad my family likes him so much. i waited til it cooled down alittle bit until i brought the kids to the park. this park was so cool. it had the most amazing swingsets and jungle gyms ive ever seen. the kids had so much fun. im not gonna lie, i was on the jungle gym too haha...IT WAS LIKE A PIRATE SHIP!!! kayleigh threw a couple of fits, fake crying and beating up zachary but we had a really good time for the most part. the kids were racing, i pushed them on this huge tire swing...i have pictures too it was fun. we left there and stopped at wawas. the kids and i picked up milkshakes and smoothies for everyone. we got back to the house and we all just relaxed infront of the waterfall that was finally done. the kids were running around with their friends which is just fun to watch. children have so much energy and have fun doing the most simple things. love them! we left around 9:45ish and headed home. i had rico drive cause my contacts were all over the place and i couldnt see that well. i fell asleep during the ride. i came home and passed out. i think the playground tired me out. god im old.

i didnt get that bartending job i applied for. sucks! i guess i just have to keep looking. im still online everyday applying for jobs so its not like im sitting on my ass. hopefully something will come up soon. i also got my unemployment papers in the mail today. i have to call on july 4th to make my claim. pain in the ass!

today idk if im gonna do much. right now im just waiting for eniko to get home and we're gonna go walking. i told her i want to go around 4. then i def need to get my ass in the tanning booth. i also have to call noodle to see if i can still get a ticket for the pig roast tomorrow. i wasnt sure when my money was gonna come but im ok for now. hopefully i can still go. megan and daveed are going too so i can hitch a ride with them. $25 all you can eat and drink...a okay in my book.

im actually gonna text noodle now. i wonder if shes home from AC.

i just got back from a bartending interview. i hope i get it...as long as its off the books ofcourse. i figure if i could collect my unemployment and work off the books until i get a full time job things will be okay. during my interview i made it a point to look excited and willing to work...numero uno in a bartending interview. i mean...who doesnt want to work for straight cash in your pocket? when asked when i was available i made sure he knew i was able to work ASAP. i told him briefly i was layed off from my job, im on day 2 of no work, going insane and im on unemployment. hopefully he caught onto the whole unemployment thing. if i can get a job off the books and collect unemployment until i get a full time job i will prob/def be making way more money than when i did work at the other joint. i wish i was still young enough to have my mom or dad to fall back on esp with times like these. but being i am an adult and i have been living on my own, paying all my own shit for years...my life just isnt that perfect. ahh to be young and irresponsible again...the good ol' days! i couldnt imagine asking my mom for money or help. im 26 years old its time to take control of my own life...which in fact i have for the past 4 years. she offered me money once while times were extremely hard and i still had to thank her and pass. who am i to expect my mother to give me her hard earned money cause my life isnt as great as it could be? i appreciated her offers completely but its not her responsiblity to get me out of a bind. im sure things will work out for the best as the usually do. perhaps i can work like this for a bit and then a full time job will come around. lets cross our fingers.

speaking of my mom, thursday rico and i are going down there for the day. i cant wait! i was originally going there to hangout w kayleigh and zachary for the day...(and my fams too) take them out to lunch and go to the park or wherever they want to go. but my mom said since everyone is gonna be home that day we should have a bbq. good call miko! i love me a bbq! so my demanding niece has been calling me telling me what i should bring down for the bbq. shes insane...she wants me to bring veggie hot wings. wtf? i wasnt aware they made those. so im going food shopping to buy whatever they need. being im not cooking i figure the least i could do is bring all the food. my mom insists on going food shopping for it but i made sure to put her in her place and let her know im bringing everything down. like who goes somewhere empty handed expecting everyone else to cater to them lol mama didnt raise no cheapo? anywho, i spoke with fred and hes gonna do the cooking and we're gonna have some fam time. im excited. i miss them a lot. like when they lived here i could go see them everyday if i wanted too. shit...i was there almost 3-4 times a week they lived 5 minutes away. now that theyre down the shore its not as easy. i kinda took the fact they were so close for granted. sucks. so thursday is going to be so fun. im taking them wherever they want to go, do whatever the hell they want and buy them everything they ask for...god i spoil the crap out of those kids and love every second of it!

geez ricos not gonna be home for another hour and im bored out of my bird!

my feet & back are killing me!!!! i gotta get used to standing up for that long or get new shoes to bartend in. so far so good tho. i got to work at 6 last night. as soon as i got there i was running around like a maniac. good tippers for the most part and thats all that matters. i like it better like that, time goes by so much quicker. i wonder if some of those people are just sitting there all day drinking. by the time i get there people are loaaaaaaaaaded. anyways, my boss left for a few hours last night when it died down. there were only a few people in and out by that time. she came back to help me close up. i was done working alittle after 12 but she just went over a few things with me. i got home at 1:00 because im fat and stopped at 7eleven for a hotdog. i now remember why i got fat when i was a barkeep....late night stops for food!!! i better knock it off.

this weekend im not sure what im gonna do. prob go out on friday night. sunday i told my niece and nephew i would go down there and take them to lunch before i go to work. yay im so excited to see them!!!! i talked to kayleigh for a little while the other night and she had me laughing so hard. i love when little kids fight! she said she'll be happy if i just take her to wawa to get a milkshake...lol cheap lunch! hopefully rico will come. i told him he better stay his ass home on saturday night so we can wake up early and go. i figure if i leave here by 10-10:30ish i have a good few hours to hangout with them. kayleigh is also demanding rico to bring his heeleys down with him so they can race. i think she has a crush on him lol shes so adorable! i just have to find a restaurant by them being im sure my mother has no clue. im excited. i miss my fams <3

tonight is strictly gym time!!! i need to go. i only went once last week cause i didnt feel good. booooo! as exhausted as i am, i need to go. its a must.

time to do some work.

also...i got to watch idol at work last night holler!!!

thursday yay...and im not going out...i dont care how bad megan begs me! ive been doing pretty good trying to get back on routine. with that said, ive only been doing it for 2 days lol. thats acutally an accomplishment for me. im back to my yearly mission which is dropping lb's by cinco de mayo. yeah, idk why ive always set that date as my goal. it usually works tho.

i went to the gym tuesday and wednesday with cathy. oddly enough both days, 2 different indian women got all up in our business. one lady told cathy she talks too loud in a high pitch voice and another was trying to explain how to use machines to us, mind u we've both been working out since world war duece. like hi, we know how to use an eliptical nosey ass bitch. she was explaining the procedures of how the gym works to me. i just wanted to smack her. like dude ive been going to that gym for over 4 years now...i know i have to sign up for eliptical. that bitch needs to mind hers. ughh so annoying. cathy found a new favorite cardio machine...its like rock climbing lol she looked cool doing it too.

after the gym last night we ventured off to MUSCLE MAKER mmmmmmm! i love that place. we tried to be slick by just ordering "turkey burger wraps" but the guy at the register made it a point to loudly ask if we meant the "XXL turkey burger wrap." i hate saying that it makes me feel fat. after that i went tanning and jetted home to eat my food. i jumped in the shower and made it out just in time for idol. god i love that show. i spoke with megan for a bit then popped my nightly benadryls & drank theraflu as if it were tea...cigarette and all. i passed out. i got a text from rico telling me he's stopping for a beer....atleast he's learning to contact me so i dont flip out on him when i wake up and he's not home. there may be hope...

im calling them today to see if i can get rid of their service. my bill is ridiculously high and has been for the past few months. if im not in a contract then im immediately switching to t-mobile so i can get my frigen sidekick 3 already!!!

this weekend was mellow as usual. friday after work i went tanning and to the bank. i came home with intentions of going out but as soon as my head hit the pillow it was curtains for me. i passed out by 6:30 or so. i slept until rico came home (loaded) from work. he was mad at me cause i wasnt answering my phone or his text messages....shit let me live i was sleeping fool. he proceeded to get hammered. he told me he was going to the store for cat food and cigarettes. i didnt know they sell cat food at the main these days??? so his journey to the "store" lasted over an hour. he finally returned and i was irate. he also managed to run 2 ezpass tolls and not tell me. i got a ticket in the mail and i thought it was from me...i look at the lisence plate number and oddly enough it wasnt mine! jerk! so i called it in to find out he had another one. it must have just slipped his mind. i went online and paid them both. he owes me $62.00 asap.

saturday i woke up nice and early. i went tanning and to the dollar store. i watched about 472047832 hours of americas next top model, ate woodbridge deli & passed out again. i slept until rico came home...again. he left work early so we ordered reo diner and i went back to bed. i wasnt feeling too hot. yeah...i really need to stop eating. its becoming quite the issue.

sunday i took a break from tanning considering my face was turning bright red. me and rico went out to lunch (god dammit i eat out a lot). i had some delicious sangria and then we went to riffys. megan and daveed met us there. we hopped in my car and went to the back porch. daria was hammered and it was her last day. she was off to south carolina or something so we stopped in to visit her. gaydos & kevo were there too. i dont recall much of the evening. im assuming i was a drunken mess. i vaguely remember going to the main? not positive. i was home by like 12 or so. it seemed later considering we were drinking all day. i believe i got into an arguement with rico when we got home. i dont remember why tho...ehh what are ya gonna do ya know? its after 3:00 and im still not able to get in touch with megan. i text her twice. i wonder if she went to work....

i cant wait to go home. 2 more hours holler. i also havent smoked a cigarette today...just alittle fun fact.

well fat ass finally went on maternity leave. she was supposed to be gone on friday but she decided to come in yesterday and make my life miserable. hate her. work is extremely hectic lately. now that catapillar brows is gone, i thought work would be more pleasant. i came into work yesterday morning to find out the other girl in sales quit over the phone and didnt give two weeks. so now im stuck doing everyones job. the other woman thinks shes too good to help out. im so annoyed. she never tells me when shes going into meeting but i had to wait to go to lunch today cause she went to church. im surprised it didnt burn down when she walked in. not only did she expect me to go around her schedule...she made me wait longer to go so she could use the bathroom. i dont remember getting a heads up when im getting stuck on the phones so i can take a leak. whatever...they better hire someone quick. i may have to have a few alcoholic bevvies tonight to relax. i think im going to do so.

anywho the only other good thing is work goes by quick. im constantly busy. we also got woodbridge deli today so that always puts a smile on my face cause im fat.

so this weekend was kick ass. well actually i slept most of it away but going to nyc is always fun. im glad its wednesday already yay i cant wait to pop sleeping pills all weekend long. yeah...i have issues.

i have a craving for reeses. i may have to eat some. doesnt look like ill be joining cathy at the gym this week lol...next week is a definate plan.

time to visit the vending machine...amen for that.

i hate snow but i really want it to come down tonight. i would really like a day off! but as expected, the weather people said its not gonna snow as much as they thought. way to get my hopes up! perhaps ill do a snow dance.

anywho...this weekend i didnt do shit. literally. i didnt feel to great on friday so i passed out around 5:30-6ish. slept thru the night and woke up nice and early on saturday. i got my taxes done saturday and may i add that place is a madhouse. ghetto ass people are NOT friendly early in the morning. i was waiting outside 10 mins before they opened cause the maniacs were starting to line up. i was the 3rd one in and they were pushing me lol assholes. i actually ended up being the first one to get my taxes done. good thing i went early cause i was in and out withing 45 minutes. after that i went and picked up breakfast for me and rico. he went to work, i went back to bed and that was my saturday night. sunday rico was sick :( he didnt feel good at all. he was throwing up, sweating, fever....the regular. i started cleaning the house and he heard me mumbling under my breath so he started to help me. i told him he needs his rest and thats why he never gets better. we went to walmart, cleaned the hell out of the house, watched the grammys and some show about women in prison (scarrrrrrrrrrrrrrry) and just chilled. i guess he started feeling better being he cracked open a bottle of wine around 9:30 lol. i had a glass with him and ate cheese....weird i know. but thats the extent of my weekend.

last night i picked up my check from the tax office and did some shopping. i got some good deals last night at a&p. i went to walmart too. only spent alittle over $100 on both places. i came home and cooked dinner. yes...i cooked. im so domestic lately lol. i talked to megan for a bit while watching i love new york...the best show ever! i got ready for bed, popped 2 sleeping pills & couldnt sleep lol. i was worried about rico he wasnt home when he normally is. he finally came home, i stayed up while he ate his dinner then i passed the fuck out.

i do believe this is the longest ive went without alcohol since i was in the womb. surprisingly i dont have the shakes yet. i may have some wine tonight, it depends on my day.

time to do some work...or talk to thaiesha online.

crikeys! i have to empty out 7 big ass filing drawers today! i am not happy about that. ill prob only get like 3 done.

anyways yay its friday! i could use a brew. rough week! well not really, just yesterday cause i was hungover. any excuse works tho. tomorrow we're going to get sushi holler! well sushi and hibachi with a side of 8702348723 zombies! apparently we'll be heading over to fridays after that. girls day woohoo! we havent done this in awhile so it will be fun to have us all together for the day. drunken silliness on da rise yes! im def bringing my camera it should be out of control! i can't wait. i may take it easy tonight tho so i can drink to my full ability tomorrow.

with that said, i hope ill be able to hang on sunday for the superbowl. lets call a spade a spade...ill be hungover like a beast.

ughh back to work.

i havent updated in quite some time...ehh who cares nothing different ever happens.

anyways this weekend was pretty low key. friday i went to da ruff with gaydos. then we came back to my house, drank for a bit and her and kevo went home. saturday i went to noodles house, hungout with her tracey & bill then went home. we went to al's, i got hit on by and old man who straight up asked me to come back to his house, screamed at him, called him a pervert, went to the main & the guy walked in there too. lol whats wrong with people. rico was NOT happy lol. sunday was my lay in bed day. we watched tv all day. i ruined my diet by eating KFC & reeses peanut butter cups but fuck it, its worth it lol. i passed out around 10:30. now im back at work and i hate it. i dont feel like doing anything as usual. i have to empty out all these filing cabinets and start new ones for 2007...needless to say, i havent started and im making up every excuse so i dont have to do it yet.

i think today i may go to walmart or a&p. i need some things. ughh i hate going out in the cold tho. i was gonna go to the gym but lets call a spade a spade...im not gonna go once im home.

my new shirt is arriving today yayayyayay! my chucks should be here shortly. im excited!

is it really THAT wrong to want to knock out a pregnant, asshole bitch?

i say no....others may disagree.

i hate this girl with a passion. her voice irks me. her hair annoys me. her eyebrows drive me mad!!! i hate her cackle of a laugh. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i cant wait til she goes on maternity leave!!!!!! i hope she never comes back too....but life isnt THAT fair now is it?

im def getting sick. my body is aching and my throat hurts. super.

so i had a fantastic 4 day weekend....that was total sarcasm. the fun started off on thursday when some hit my car and bounced while i was at the MT. i had to call the cops and get a police report. atleast its drivable and the lights still work. thats the most important part. ricos brand new phone that i bought for him on his birthday was stolen. i now need to make another police report for that when i go pick up my other one. on a better note....COWCAT CAME HOME!!!! yay im so happy!!! i worked on friday, didnt make much money...different? and i was gonna go to a nye party but megan got sick. i went to gaydos' house and celebrated aka drank the new year in. i wasnt home late either. i came home and hungout with rico cause he finally got home from work.

that is all i did.

now i have work tonight and im probably gonna make like a dollar. woo hoo! im about to quit.

the end.

blahhhh! so gross! i woke up not feeling right...im starting to feel alittle better tho. im sure the coffee i drank didnt help either...or the ephedra. im assuming its out of my system cause im starving like whoa right now. doritos it is! i always get so scared when i get stuff out of the vending machine...i hate when it gets stuck!!!

anyways, i came home from work last night and relaxed before i had to get up and go to work again. im taking my sweet ass time. figuring i go in at 7 so i had time to lay down and nap for an hour. i couldnt sleep tho. i got ready and was leaving around 6:20ish. i thought id get there early to hangout and not have to just jump right behind the bar. as im literally walking out the door my phone rings. its my boss, dave. he's asking me where i am and if i knew i was working. i was like yeah im walking out the door now why. he told me i was supposed to be there at 6. i explained how they told me i start at 7 now so i just assume to go in then. he told me im back to 6 o'clock so i can make more money yay! i mean, lately money has been shitty, my hours have been cut back an hour (when most of my money is made too) and now this asshole stacy wants to alternate hours cause its fair??? fuck off. she comes in demands mondays and thursdays. changed the whole schedule around so she can work til 7 so she can make money. now that i was coming in at 7, i was losing a lot of tips cause its like a happy hour kinda place. so i dont care im going in on tuesday at 6 and telling her dave said i start at 6 again. fuck her. and no shes not getting my fridays....jerk.

work was pretty slow most of the night. i had a few stragglers come in and leave. noodle finally came to see me being shes iced me for over a week. she didnt stay long tho. she just came back from sushi and zombies...i yelled at her. i <3 zombies! mmmmm maybe i can convince rico to take me there tonight when we're done shopping. i dont remember what time i closed at. it was pretty early i think like 11:30ish. rico...was supposed to call me when he was leaving work. one of us was gonna stop for food...did he? of course not. i called his job and no one was there. so i go home and im pissed off. dont fuck with me when it comes to food lol....no really dont. so i just went to bed after i gave him an attitude. probably better i didnt eat im fat enough thanks.

i was online shopping yesterday....just yesterday. already this coat i wanted went up like $30?!? in a day? mother fucker! i gotta jam on it everyday to see the price drop or go up. even something i bought yesterday was $10 cheaper today? whaaaaaaaaaaaats up with that! but i did buy a few things today that i wanted yesterday because they were a lot cheaper. its like bidding on ebay...you gotta stay on top of your game!

last night i went in to work alittle early because kimmy said she had to go home to cook dinner for her and her boyfriend. not a problem. so i go there and her boyfriend is sitting at the bar. i asked her what she was cooking and she looked at me like i had 2 heads. then im assuming she remembered telling me that and made up the lame excuse that phil's stomach was bothering him. good thing he was drinking beer!!! i ended up staying on the other side of the bar til 7:00. i couldve had an extra half hour to myself at home. whateva. so kimmy is trying to close up and count out her register. she drove me insane! she had no clue how to do it. she did it wrong. then when i tried to show her how its done, she told me thats not the way she does it. well her way is wrong. so i basically had to do her drawer. shes ass backwards.

im having a talk with my boss today. theres too many things going on there lately. from scheduling to me not getting any of my hourly pay yet. i worked over 52 hours there so the extra money would come in handy for christmas. im gonna tell him that im losing a lot of money coming in at 7:00. even tho its only an hour its def hurting my tips. 6:00-7:00 is the most busy time there. they want to come home from work, relax and have a drink. by the time i get there at 7 theyre all ready to go home for dinner. im gonna talk to him about the new girl stacy and how i dont like her. shes trying to be like the manager. now she wants my friday nights? get the fuck outta here. she demands her days and wants to rotate my fridays cause its "fair??" no. i was here first, i like my schedule and im not about to change it cause she wants my money night. shes an asshole and instead of getting in her face im going straight to the boss so he can deal with it. im losing a lot of money so my main concern is the hours and scheduling.

tonight is christmas tree night! i dont even care i just like decorating it. megan and daveed are gonna come over too i think. its so fun. we get cases of budlight & bud nip cans and as we finish one, we hang the can on the tree lol so ghetto! it actually looks nice with the lights on it. you cant tell theyre beer cans on our tree. strictly bud & budlight for the festive colors lol the blue, silver & red! last year we also had a squirrel on top of the tree instead of an angel??? i may have to put my foot down on that one this year lol. omg i just remembered something. last year when me and gaydos stayed up all night drinking and wrapping presents, we put everything we could find on the tree. i mean statues, a mini-bike...hhahahah gaydos hung up weird things on the walls and hanging from the ceiling. needless to say rico was not happy when he woke up lol.

i think im kinda getting into the christmas spirit alittle more. i mean everyone knows i hate it. but im having fun buying presents and stuff. thats my favorite part. i love shopping for other people. i just dont wanna buy anything for people at work. i wish we had a grab bag. that would be so much easier. i dont have money to spend on co-workers. id rather buy stuff for rico & the fams.

ok i have to do something at work. ive been online shopping all morning.

my allergies are ridiculous today. i guess cause its basically december and its going to be 70 degrees? whats up with that? i must have sneezed 384037483 times today and i hate blowing my nose infront of people!!!

i worked last night. i love it there. i have so much fun! noodle came in....AGAIN! shes gonna have a major drinking problem with me working around the corner from her. she talked to me for 5 minutes and was strictly on the megatouch. it was pretty dead most of the night. tracy and her boyfriend came in later on. he brought his friends and 2 drunk girls. people there are real alcoholics lol. they dont even drink a lot and theyre slurring. hold yours ya know! i think i forgot to do some things at the end of the night. crikeys ill appologize. i also need to make a liquor list asap...they dont have much. tracy and bill stayed basically til i was done cleaning up. i only had a few things left to do so i told them they could leave. i got out of there around 11:30. not bad. i thought i made more money than i did but $70 for doing basically nothing and having fun isnt too bad. any money extra is a plus in my book. i guess its decent for only having like 10 customers all night lol. im just glad i dont have to dip into my bank account anymore. i love that!!!!! i paid rico back the $50 he let me borrow too. i think ill pick up more shifts if they want. i can close the bar whenever i feel like it so i may just do that. im off tonight. i kinda want to work....WHO AM I?? however i will be working friday & saturday so lets hope for some money! saturday im gonna bring in a tray of food. i think my boss is bringing in some stuff so what the hell...might as well kiss some ass. hopefully those cheapo tippers will hook it up if i bring in some rice & beans lol its so good!

geez, its only 9:30 and i want doritos.

i was gonna cook eggs this morning. as im about to start making them, i go to get the non-stick olive oil out of the cabinet. i dropped a bottle of hot sauce and some other crap all over the place. the eggs spilled out of the bowl all over the counter. they were the last of my eggs. now im starving, ricos sleeping & im not happy. lasgna it is.

im not drunk.

theres not one ounce of me that wants to do any work today...not even alittle. i need these little breaks to make my day go quicker. i hope i have to go to the bank and make deposits or something. i love doing that, i get out of the office for a half hour.

also someone ate all the doritos in the vending machine...ARE THEY MAD???? god i know they all see that i eat them everyday. the nerve of someone to take the last bag! so...reese's it was. sweet jesus i honestly spend half my income in that damn vending machine. and no i wont stop.

tonight im supposed to go to cathys house to check out her new pad. i hope the weather clears up. i hate driving on the parkway in da drizzle...haha nevermind.

i hope rico's feeling better today. my babes was sick last night. hahhahaha who eats 12 deviled eggs??? everytime i saw him last night he was shoveling one in his mouth. then i told him that and he yells at me "WELL WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME I'D GET SIIIIICK!!!" lololol psycho. he seriously had no business eating all that. haha he couldnt even move. he had one of those ethiopian stomachs that popped out. pooooor rico!

holy these reeses are super. ughhh i need my period to stop immediately so i stop eating...i also need the new girl to answer the damn phones! so annoying.

im not getting into it but my life is one huge pain in the ass. i can never just have a smooth sailing couple of months....sucks but tis my life.

anywho, im feeling mighty large today. i cant stop eating!!!! i wont stop cause i cant stop. i hate having my period im such a fat loaf.

well i went to get my money back last night. it was surprisingly easy. i was in and out in 5 minutes. hahahahh those 3 sentences sound real perverted if i didnt know what i was talking about. i keep checking my account but it hasnt deposited yet. it needs to be in there by tomorrow in da a.m. sharp!!! the guy was real nice. he liked that my ringtone was biggie...possibly because he was an extremely large, overly dark, black man. he was cool tho. i kept making jokes at him just to make sure i was def getting all 1000 buck-a-roo's back! (holy crap im such a geek lately). so he i signed the receipts and went about my business. its weird like i wasnt heartbroken or anything...i guess cause just needed anything at this point in my life. tomorrow i get to go thru all this hell again!!! hopefully it will be quick to the point so rico can be home in time to get his hurrr did. lol hes such a skirt i love him. so as long as the money is in the account im good to go.

random thought: i should def buy stock in reese's.

holy its 3:30 already son...thats what im talking about. i think im gonna go smoke a cigarette while my boss is entertaining the new girl with powerpoint. thank god he didnt try that ish with me.

sucks, my ear is hurting so bad right now. so not only is it monday morning which i hate, i have cramps from hell and now an ear problem...awesome.

anyways, friday night i stayed home. i watched "54" and a bunch of other crap on tv. i bullshitted with his mom and then he came home. you know him tho, couldnt stay home for too long. he had to go to the bars about 3 times before he actually stayed in. saturday i woke up pretty early. we ate breakfast and he went to work...different. i watched a bunch of movies AGAIN and just chilled out. when he came home he demanded we go out. so to the main it was. after the MT we went to al's and then home. i was hammered. yesterday i DID NOT feel good. not even due to a hangover, i have major back pains, cramps like whoa and i was just exhausted. i didnt get to take a nap tho. i was too busy watching 8 hours of flavor of love. rico came home and we ate dinner. i thought i was gonna die i was so hungry. we watched "the man" until the season finale of flavor of love came on. i was so excited. now theyre making me wait 2 weeks til they show the reunion episode ahhhhh!!! i passed out immediately after the show was over. i was beat. now its monday, im bored, my boss is pissed off again, theres a new girl that started today & im hungry.

i hope today goes by quick cause i wanna go home. hopefully my ear wont hurt by the end of the day so i can go to the gym....excuses excuses.

i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate mondays. well not monday nights....house of carters kiiiid! best show ever!!!!

work sucked today. my boss was in a really bad mood, which is weird cause he's always so nice. ughh i felt like everything i did was wrong. i hate that feeling. either that or he just wanted to bitch about stuff. im assuming he had a hangover...it was his bday weekend.

so this weekend i didnt do much. friday i was sleeping all night. it felt super. saturday i went to the gym (yep) then met his mom at a south amboy bar. after that i went to meet them at the main but they all wanted to leave. came home, waited for rico, went to al cibelis and thats about it. sunday i picked thaiesha up and we came back to my house. i had a few beers...nothing crazy and then we worked on her resume. i got her an interview at my job tomorrow. you better get that job bitch.

i just got home from the gym (again) and im already eating red beaners and rice. i usually dont even like this stuff but its banging today. i picked out all the beans tho. so much for the gym. and lets call a spade a spade...ill eat more too.

ughh i dont feel like showering yet but i gotta do it. then i can sleep later tomorrow yay.

crikeys...what a day. to start it off i went out last night. yeah i feel super. i didnt stay out late tho which is weird. i didnt even drink a lot.

at work we had a meeting which didnt start til like 3:45. it was awesome. well not the meeting, the after party. ok, they ordered woodbridge deli treats and it was banging. im actually eating some now. anywho...there was about 30 bottles of wine and like 4 or 5 different cases of beer. i <3 my job. so we ate and had a few drinks. i chatted with some peeps for a bit then i left. i go to megans house and shes getting ready for some drinks. we head out to riffys and had some beers. jared and craig were sitting in jareds truck, stoned out of their minds, laughing hysterically & eating quick chek subs. so weird lol. now the corney & petty drama begins.

i had 3 beers on a tab. megan had her own tab. i was in work attire still and i wanted to go home and change. i left my card there being i was gonna be right back. i went home and met up with rico, who mind you was trashed for being in staten island. we go back to carpets & rico paid cash for all our beers. we wanted to leave so i asked sissy (haha yes thats her name and i refused to say it) for my tab. i was like ehh whatever its only like 3 beers on it. she looked at me and was like "ummm ohhh no, you have a $56 tab." i was like whoa theres no way in hell 3 beers cost that much. so it turns out that when i was gone, the barkeeps were putting everything on my tab instead of megans. so i was like im not paying that. megan was wasted. so she gets all mad cause she put everything on her card cause sissy couldnt divide the tab up and megan didnt want her to just take the 3 beers off that i had. ughh so i was like ill give you money and she was all snotty with me "no dont worry about no dont bother" blah blah blah. so i asked her how much i owed her and she told me i owe $20. ummm no. im not cheap and normally i wouldve paid it cause money is stupid to argue over. i stated i didnt have the money to spend on a $60 tab. i told her i wasnt paying that and she did not like it one bit. so she keeps getting snotty and i was like whatever so we left. he and i went to the main and then home to bed.

today i get a lovely text message from megan (probably still drunk) saying "thanks again." i knew she was being a fuckin bitch so i asked her "for what?" she text me after say "forget it" so i said "forget what" (lol this is a weird paragraph) shes like im still bothered about the whole tab thing last night. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so i told her i only had 3 beers and rico paid cash the rest of the night. im not spending money on other people getting drunk ya know. so shes like you did not have only 3 beers then you said you had no money and you go to the main after. ummm first off im not a cheapo like she is. money isnt that serious to get all worked up about...esp $60. second mind yours...dont worry about where i went after the bar. lastly dont make it seem like i went out and tried to drink for free. i never said i didnt have money. i stated i didnt have enough money to pay for the whole tab. not my problem there was a mistake. so she tells me how everytime she goes out she gets fucked for the bill. idk maybe she shouldnt run tabs then or maybe she shouldve asked jarod and all them for money. i was just a fraction of that bill. so whatever. i told her ill give her money and her response was "alright." idk if she said it snotty like yeah whatever or if shes like okay. either way im over it ya know. not worth fighting over a fuckin few dollars. i wouldve paid the whole fucking thing but i just bought a car. i am not at liberty to spend money i dont have to spend ya know. whatever. so shes prob mad at me....whateva lol.

its after 3:00 already??? holy cow time flies here even with a hangover and refusal to do work!! holler attcha potato salad. its fantastic.